"To the love of my life I write to you this…
We’v met during our freshman year of college and I fell in love with
you ever since. I always wondered of what really attracted me to you.
Was is the fact that you were always a hard working individual
academically and spiritually? Or the fact that you love to
help people? Truth is; everybody that met you fell in love with your
personality. As a freshman on the tennis team you were given the title
of being “the women’s rookie player of the year”. You helped the
highlanders set a school record of victories with a 10-9 mark. I simply
fell in love with you for being you.
We got engaged and been best
friends ever since. You remember that time when we were in Dr. Hunter’s
math class? He asked a question, while I was sleeping, and he said: “I
think Omar would have the answer”. You had to wake me up… As I was
opening my eyes; I looked towards you to see the most beautiful smile I
had ever seen. College years passed by before we knew it and as we were
getting ready for graduation we were also making plans for our wedding,
applying to jobs and furnishing our small apartment.
June 27, 2009
was our wedding day. The next day when we woke up I asked you: “Fatma do
you believe what happened yesterday?” “Do you believe how God blessed
us with such a beautiful wedding?” You said: “I have no idea how God
puts these things together”. One month after our honey moon, we found
out that we’re pregnant and are now expecting a baby; we thanked God for
that. At that point I swore to you that nothing is more dear and
precious to me in this life than you; not even the baby, so before the
baby comes I want you to know this.
Five
months into the pregnancy; while you were teaching at school you
fainted and became unconscious. I received a call from the school
principal: “Mr. A. your wife has been rushed to St. Joseph’s hospital”. I
rushed to the hospital, when I arrived you were still in the emergency
room. Shortly afterwards; the doctor came out and told me you had a
brain tumor and that we have to lose the baby as soon as possible in
order to save your life. I was crying not knowing how this is going to
end, but when I went inside and you were sitting and you said (smiling):
“tell me, what’s going on?” I said: “Nothing”. You said: “I know there
is something going on; tell me”. I said: “Nothing Fatma, they just found
something inside”. You said (smiling): “So who put that thing inside?” I
said: “I don’t know who put it inside.”
Ten days after this you
went into a comma. I stayed by your side the whole time and would try to
wake you up saying: “Come on my sleeping beauty, time to wake up”. I
continued to pray for you throughout the day and night. I tried all I
can to keep you safe; I tried every treatment doctors recommended and
didn't lose hope. Even when doctors told me there is no hope, its
useless just let her be. I tried to do everything possible, because I
know that if you were in my place you would've stood in the face of the
world and said: “I would do whatever it takes to save my husband”.
I
praised God for allowing me to celebrate with you your 24th birthday;
our first birthday as a married couple. Even if you were asleep that
wasn't going to stop me from buying your favorite flavored cake and
singing Happy birthday to you. I thank God for making you part of my
life and I will always cherish every single day we spend together.
April 13, 2010 was the day God decreed you leave this world; you've been
sleeping for the past 99 days. I hope you are happy with all what I had
to offer you to the last breath. As we were driving to the cemetery for
your funeral; I looked up to the sky and said: “Dear God, I fulfilled
my share of the oath when I said till death do us part; she is now in
your hands… please bless her soul”.
Till we meet again in Paradise; this I believe
I will always and forever love you
Your Husband.
Omar A.
